What a Coincidence?
bhelle
8:48 pm
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My due date for
giving birth to my third child will supposedly on September 11, however, due to
some complications during my pregnancy the doctor decided to take the baby out
before this date and that was last month of August the 11th. My baby
is now a month old.
I was not really
hoping to have my baby born at this date because this was the date of my
father’s death. I was really hoping that my baby will be born after this date
but to save the life of my baby I left with no choice.
Is it really a
coincidence? When I knew that I am pregnant early this year, I spoke to my
husband and told him “What if the baby will be born the same date as my father
passed away?” Until now, I am still mourning for his death, maybe somehow, our
Heavenly Father finds a way to fulfill the gaps of my happiness as of this
moment? I really don’t know. My husband told me that my thoughts was impossible
so I just leave it hanging and said to myself. I am just thinking too much and
worried.
The periods of
my pregnancy went well until the month of July. The gestational diabetes went
bad and so the condition of the baby inside. I never had an ultrasound this
much until the month of July which was done every 48 hours after nurses
monitored the baby’s heartbeat. I was so worried for everything but left
everything to God’s hand, whatever happens, there’s a reason for it. I never
forget the gesture of the doctor three days before the 11th of
August, while doing the ultrasound. She tried to smile at me and spoke calmly
about the situation of my baby. She did not really pointed-out that C section
within 24 to 48 hours will be done depending on the changes of the condition
inside. But when I went to see the doctor for diabetes he said that my
C-section will be on the 11th of August thus he gave me instructions
on how to prepare myself, this involved of how much dosage I had to take of the
insulin the night before the operation.
After two days
which was August 11, 2013 I went back to the hospital for monitor and
ultrasound. It was so devastating when I heard the baby’s heartbeats stopped
every minute. I started to cry and panicked, same views when the doctor did the
ultrasound right after the heartbeat monitor. The baby didn’t move at all. What
we heard was just hiccups and that wasn’t counted as movement. Right at that
moment, the doctor decided for the emergency C-section. The operation lasted
for almost 5 hours. The doctor confirmed that was the most difficult operation
she ever had.
Until now, I
still can’t imagine how coincidence was my thought of having my baby born same
date as my father’s death? Frankly speaking, I have mix emotions sad and
happiness at the same time, thinking and of course celebrating two different
events in one.
(Re-post from my deleted blog way back 2013)
